What If: i keep raising this issue, but i haven't been able to get any kind of rational answer.
where, and what is the nature of, this pervading intelligence?
i absolutely refuse to believe that a loving, benevolent, all powerful, god would allow all of the nonsense that goes on.
we all would be living the good life, no worries, strife, grief, pain, all our needs met.
And yet the miraculous is clearly unavoidable. It seems to me you are confronted with an example of a disjunctive syllogism here, where you have two mutually exclusive options which hold some inconsistencies that must be reconciled;
1. Either God does exist because there is clearly no answer to what surely must be miraculous, and if so from a human perspective the facts that seem inconsistent must be reconciled somehow.
2. God doesn't exist and the miraculous which exists must be reconciled somehow with a natural theory.
I would say then that there can only be one or the other, and if we can rule out one then the other must be true no matter what it's inconsistencies.
With that in mind I would say that if we go with the true known facts then what is being said in the opening message is that there is no way for life to come about naturally and all of the evidence points away from this. On the other hand we have the facts of life themselves which also show a miraculous level of intelligent design.
In other words it seems to me that if you rule out number 2 you are left with number 1 and if you are left with number 1 then you must come to terms with the fact that the inconsistencies may have answers to them which are either very difficult to accept or unknown, or not fully known to us.
However I do have sympathy for the argument which is sometimes called philosophically, The Problem Of Evil and Suffering. It is true that philosophically this problem is a very powerful argument for atheism and one of the most powerful arguments against God. I don't think there is any way to fully argue a perfect response. However if 2 must be false then 1 must be true if those are the only two possibilities and it seems almost 100% certain that the miraculous is true.
So then your struggle to understand, "What If", is the struggle we all have to understand, to some degree. To my mind there is nothing more counter-intuitive that believing God will answer my request for more customers and yet at the same time He will allow a prayer to heal cancer to go in one ear and out the other, or that at the very same time He will be aware someone is being murdered while I request pleasure or some other vain, relatively unimportant thing.
This will always be the greatest mystery. And yet, if number 1 MUST be true then logically it follows that there must be answers.
SOME POSSIBLE ANSWERS;
God is evil/the force that created life is evil.
This doesn't really work for sensible people in the sense that there is something innately wrong about this argument. Intuitively people just kind of know that if God exists He would have to be a Creator and creation tends to go against having a destructive attitude. My second point against this argument is that God's mind is inconceivably great, nothing we can even really imagine as limited humans, in which case if God is sadistic or evil even humans alone with so much less power and intelligence, could create much, much, much more evil on earth that God is apparently causing. For example we could breed humans in concentration camps if we were evil, and torture to death slowly, maybe 95% of them while breeding more and more from the remaining percentage.
Conclusion; If God is evil then He is dumb, and since the one responsible for creating life cannot be dumb therefore God cannot be evil.
God is pantheistic, He doesn't care about humans any more than He does ants.
Again it doesn't make sense because of the human condition. We are designed to be moral, we innately know that there is a problem with the world.
My answer; God MUST allow evil in a temporary/Godless system.
This is basically the answer that satisfies me most, personally. That if God says while man is living in paradise, "don't choose sin and going it alone without me", if mankind chooses, "no God" and chooses to be his own god, then if God allowed the world to continue as though it was ruled by Him and not us, and there was no difference to the paradisical world, then that would be tantamount to God declaring this; "There are no consequences to having a God-made system without God in that system." And remember what you said? You said; "we all would be living the good life, no worries, strife, grief, pain, all our needs met" Would we? I don't think so if God said we would die if we disobeyed. So according to the bible, we very defnitely would not be living the good life, except at the beginning when we walked with God at the beginning of time. I also have witnessed that "living the good life" isn't a test of character. I can tell you in my own spiritual walk, BEFORE I went through what I have went through, I was a shallow piece of meat. That is to say, as difficult as it is to have to cope with, there is something about being tested which produces character, there is something wrong with a superficial person that has never known pain of any kind, that person can't relate to you. S/He can't say, "I know all about that" because they know precisely SQUAT. They are likely air-heads that only know the easy ways of life, ease comfort and pleasure. They likely don't give a fig about poor people or people suffering and will likely put themselves first having only been conditioned to look after number one.
This would be from a rationalists point of view - a LUDICROUS course to take, because if God didn't take His hands off He would be justifying all of the anti-God arguments and the anti-God worldview. In a very real way, God must allow abortion to show how bloody it gets without Him in the formula, God must allow murder, to show how terrible the consequences are when men follow their hatred, anger and lust, and obey their sinful nature and not the divine nature. God must allow disease to show that a system without God is one bound to be broken. In short, God is effectively saying to mankind, "I told you so."
So God was right, when someone is murdered for S@xual pleasure, that's exactly what He's talking about, that kind of feeding of lustful/wrong desires can actually lead to something truly terrible, which He didn't want.
Finally, Christ Himself suffered badly which changes things entirely in that Christianity is the only theistic belief which tells us that God has experienced the consequences of a Godless system, Himself. That he had to die as a human shows us that God really is immutable, that He can't cross Himself. (can't break His own rules). So He knew that He Himself to satisfy His own rules, must suffer and die because we could never satisfy them having broken then. For we are as helpless children, our morality is pitifully small compared to God's holy standards.
(I give this explanation for you to read, "What If", not to debate you but to simply explain how I see it.) To my mind, there cannot be, "not God". Sure you can say I am somehow wrong - that's ultimately up to you, but I myself could never convince myself God is not there because my problem is, - He does answer me. Even when I test Him and am simply being a doubter, He answers. For some reason He only answers the prayers of His children. (those born again in Christ). Maybe He is just being true to Himself, and after all He is God, if He is not true to Himself then we would live in a world of chaos. So many times I wonder why God bothers with me, and yet I have to confess he does. If I was conjuring it all up it wouldn't last, and I would be atheist by now. No man can fake it until he makes it - God really has to be there if you really do need Him. If He isn't you don't make it.