In your original post you mentioned moving from agnostic to atheist, is this correct?
It kinda seems from your posts that it may be the other way around?
Just a little confused.
Maybe you could explain to everyone the switch and why?
I've had a few questions relating to this so I'll try and give an answer all in one.
I was raised in a loosely Christian family. It was assumed that God existed, but in the same way we assumed the sun would rise tomorrow. It was there, but kind of unimportant and never really spoken about that much. So although I was raised on Christian values, the belief system was never really pressed on me.
Then I had some bad things happen in my life and being young and not understanding I chose to blame it on God (hey, it had to be someones
fault, right?) So I spent a few years in that "I don't believe in God but I hate him all the same" place that is completely paradoxical.
My parents elected to send me to a Catholic school (more for the better education than for the spiritual teachings) and I ran into a whole school full of people who were believers. The RE classes and the masses we were forced to attend were about as enlightening as watching the grass grow and I got sick of being force fed things I didn't believe and that no one could back up. I also noticed just how brainwashing these sessions were - despite never becoming a believer I can still recite most of the songs and hymns.
I also began to learn how ridiculous some things were. Such as the "Harry Potter is evil" scandal and that the church was teaching people that condoms didn't prevent AIDS.
But at the same time I was talking to other students about faith. It is them I have to thank. I came to realise how stupid it was to hate something I didn't believe in, and that I really wanted there to be a greater meaning to life. So although I felt that the church was far too corrupt and the Bible too scientifically inaccurate to be completely believable, I did feel that there was something more.
In my final year I elected to do 'Text and Traditions' classes (we had to do some form of religious education and this was the only one that actually contributed to my final grades). This was an historical study of the Bible, rather than the force feeding we had received so far. Discussions were open and things were actually explained rather than assumed.
My teacher for this class was amazing. He is the only teacher I have ever met that could take on the students. He always
had an answer for everything, no matter how cheeky a student may have been. Likewise he also had an answer to any question regarding faith.
It was through him I learned that although there may be better explanations for Christ's miracles, he definitely existed and his message remains relevant.
Over the last few years I've done a lot of research into science. It seems the more I look into it, the smaller and less important mankind seems. It's really only since the beginning of the year I chose to give up my agnostic beliefs and see what it was like to be an atheist.
I found a peace in this that I had never felt before. I found that when you eliminate God from the equation, and accept that all we are is random space dust floating aimlessly about...all we really have is each other. I felt a connectedness to all life (not just people) that I had never known. That assumption that without God we would be unmoralistic animals is just bogus. I feel more connected to people after becoming atheist than I ever did as a believer or agnostic.
I also found that ever single belief I had ever had needed to be reevaluated. Until you make such a big change in your life you have no idea how many ideals are rooted in your beliefs. Once you remove that original belief system you realise you can't justify things anymore.
Which kind of brings me to why I'm here. At the moment I'm not sure what a lot of my beliefs are. I'm having to re-evaluate all of them and I figure a place like this is a good way to do it. So I'm open to being challenged. You may also find me flip-flopping a bit until I figure out where I stand.
"You said you are a believer in the historical and moral sense. What does this mean? I understand the historical sense but does this mean that you believe in the historicity of His miracles and resurrection? In the moral sense do you believe it was a good moral teaching for Jesus' followers to worship Him?" - Adam_777
I believe Christ did some pretty impressive things, but no I don't think he ever did anything that could not be explained logically.
I believe following His moral teachings is a good thing, but I think 'worship' is too strong a word.
"But, He also said HE is God." - de_skudd
I need to double check my Bible to be certain Christ said these, but I know the New Testament says that h*m*sexuals are evil and that woman are essentially second class citizens. There are a lot of things religion says. Since it's my belief that these words came from man and not God I feel happy to pick and choose which ones I follow.
So there it all is. Sorry about such a long post but I hope you find it enlightening.