Javabean wrote:But just because I don't know doesn't mean that I am going to jump aboard the feel good bandwagon called 'Godidit'. I just don't feel comfortable by saying oh it's too difficult to prove XYZ so I am just going to use a textbook answer that is 2000 years old, and could have been written by bronze age monks, but the book will claim to be written by God, so I will believe it at its face value. I just can't do it.
Yes but sometimes we are being drawn and don't even know it Javabean. I can totally understand your concerns here and sounds like you're being very objective and honest.
As far as the text of the scripture--there are multiplicities of fully copied manuscripts as well as many ancient portions and fragments. Have you heard of the dead sea scrolls--very old--and they match very well with copied more modern texts.
But I realize you're doubting if it actually came from God. One of favorite verses in I Corinthians 2:4,5--the apostle Paul writes -- 4 and my speech and my message were not in plausible words of wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, 5 that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.
I was raised in a very sedate but Bible preaching church--however there was really no power in the peoples' lives or in the church services. I remember I used to feel something though--like a peace--but not much else and so I "backslid" when I was 16.
When I came back after 6 years my dad was going to a different type of church that believed in the power of God and prayer. Not weirdo people, but their worship (song service) was very lively. i remember I felt peace first but something else too. It felt like power--almost like static electricity in the air. The back of my neck wanted to shake but I did not lose control of it. i just felt it--and it was real.
The sermons were like the preacher was reading my mail--which many people testify too.
I was ready Java--at that time--you are just not ready--but God is drawing you. Just don't wait too long.
Thank you AFJ for your well written post I always enjoy learning the how's and why's of what makes people tick.
I think life is an amazing thing, and not knowing what will happen next is what makes it so interesting! I'm happy for you to find peace and comfort from God and religion.
I was there at one point also, but like I've said before It didn't hold up to my scrutiny. I felt that there was some internal logic problems that no one had a good answer for, or at the very least one that I could buy.